Previously titled Monkey Madness?

(copied from a different blog)


I just don't get it. He's supposed to be a fucking genius, but he's acting like a dumbass monkey who's sitting on the branch thinking of the next thing to do to impress me. WTF? If I didn't know any better I'd think he was an ex-husband who couldn't let go and didn't have any other place or any other friends.

A couple weeks ago, at the request of the "IT" guy, I had to go through all the different websites and change the emails to the alpha/numerical/symbol passwords. Each one different. Very difficult to do. There are over 30 different websites. Websites created at the request of BT. But I did it anyway.

Today, BT and his IT guy call me and want to do some work on the websites. They want to change the emails to one mail email and change the passwords again. Well, because I created the accounts, they all have my email as a contact email. He wasn't happy about that. He also wasn't happy that there are 8 different stupid Twitter accounts, 2 Myspace accounts. (if anybody understands Twitter and Myspace you have to have separate emails for each account, so as a result each account, has a different email, but mine for contact.) Well of course that's not good enough, "they should all have the same email" They finally figure out how to sign in to Myspace and try to change the password and the vanity URL and contact email. They don't have a clue. I asked several times if they needed help and offered to change it to the email they wanted and the password they wanted. They completely ignored me. (they didn't want me to know what they were changing it to.)

So as a result of the temper tantrum BT and the IT guy took the list of passwords and are changing them all as well as the contacts. Resulting in me no longer taking care of any of the websites. In effect, telling me I'm no longer needed. My total job was to take of the websites. Which I now I no longer have.

I honestly don't care. I'm tired of all the bull shit. Tired of all the tempers. Tired of constantly covering his ass. Tired of being "on call 24/7/365".  Tired of lying. I'm tired of having ideas that would work and being ignored. I'm tired of working so hard and not being credited. I'm tired of being invisible. I'm tired of being Peach, I'm ready to be Lynne again.


Then I get a text. All excited asking me to go to a website and check it out. Because I am a nice person, I sign on the computer, and go check it out. Yay, another 'toy" application for him to use one or two times with his iphone for his fans. That I've told him before was stupid. Just like I said tumblr was stupid and that he'd get tired of using it. (guess what, he got tired of tumblr) Just like I said he'd get tired of using his other gig AIM address. He used it twice. The iphone application that he should be using he doesn't want to use. Even though every other musician out there of every genre, is picking it up. He thinks it's stupid. He could have had it done for free last year, now it costs $298 to have one. (that's how long I've been telling him to use it... over a year!!!!)

But I digress. Earlier today, I'm done. I've moved on. I've even removed links. I just don't care. Then I get a text like we're best of friends and he wants to show me a new pair of shoes that he just bought. I don't get it. Did we get married when I wasn't looking? Did somebody give me monkey who's trying to impress me?

Previously titled "Haters 2.0"

(imported from a different blog)


I am sooooo over people tonight. I don't even know if I'll even finish writing this because I'll have to think about people to do it. *shakes head*

a couple weeks ago I discovered that somebody I thought was a friend made a judgment about me that  after thinking about it, it got me a little upset. I'm tired of constantly being judged by people who think they know me because of what I do for BT. Nobody knows me. Nobody knows what I do for BT or why or how. Nor do they know our agreement.  It's nobody's business, but mine and his. That's it. But evidently his fans think they also have the right to know my personal business too and make judgments about me.

It was brought to my attention that Billie/Sunny was 'no longer pleased with BT because she was discovering that he wasn't a nice person. That he uses people, then when he's done he just tosses them aside. And she was tired of seeing me being used'  And yeah ok, that shouldn't have made me mad, but after I thought about it, it did. She had no right to make that judgment about me. She has no idea what has transpired between BT and myself over the last 5 yrs and never will. It's nobody's business but mine.

Because I was getting tired of different fans constantly coming to me and only wanting to ask me about BT related things, I went through my Twitter account and 'cleaned house' Deleting several people. One of them was Billie. I also thought she was deleting her account, so it was no big deal. Well come to find out,  she, and two others have decided to go on a rampage on Twitter about me and defame me to BT no less.

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I finally got a hold of Billie and found out exactly what was going on. She had no idea that BT had already attacked me and accused/judged me without even giving me a chance to defend myself. His exact quote was "Billie's email is bringing tears to my eyes"

I found out through Billie that she also judged and convicted me without talking to me first. She listened to other people who had an agenda against me (mostly because of jealously which I could careless about). She was told by these two/three people that I was accusing her of pirating music and was threatening to prosecute her. That I was talking about this on websites and with other people. The only thing wrong with her story is that there were no other websites that she could show me where I had posted anything. Nor could she answer the question of why wouldn't I have emailed BT and his attorney about the pirating instead of spreading the rumor?  She also couldn't answer how I would know that she even was pirating the new album.

I knew the other people were torrenting/pirating the new album because they publicly posted about it. I never got mad about it or posted anywhere about it or made it public. I was disappointed and hurt. These were the people who claimed to be BT's hardcore fans. and when the album leaked they were the first to jump on it. Kind of disappointing huh?

It's also just as disappointing to be tried, found guilty, and convicted without the chance of defending yourself against people who are supposed to be your friends. Billie it doesn't really bother me so much, we weren't really that close of friends, she was a friend only because she was a fan first. But BT is somebody who I've stood by for 5yrs and considered a friend. I've loved and care for as a family member. We shared things we wouldn't normally share with others. He told me many times how much he loved me and how lost he'd be without me and my help. We cared about each others family and shared daily personal life trials and achievements.  But for an unexplained reason, he judged and convicted me.