Previously titled "Haters 2.0"

(imported from a different blog)


I am sooooo over people tonight. I don't even know if I'll even finish writing this because I'll have to think about people to do it. *shakes head*

a couple weeks ago I discovered that somebody I thought was a friend made a judgment about me that  after thinking about it, it got me a little upset. I'm tired of constantly being judged by people who think they know me because of what I do for BT. Nobody knows me. Nobody knows what I do for BT or why or how. Nor do they know our agreement.  It's nobody's business, but mine and his. That's it. But evidently his fans think they also have the right to know my personal business too and make judgments about me.

It was brought to my attention that Billie/Sunny was 'no longer pleased with BT because she was discovering that he wasn't a nice person. That he uses people, then when he's done he just tosses them aside. And she was tired of seeing me being used'  And yeah ok, that shouldn't have made me mad, but after I thought about it, it did. She had no right to make that judgment about me. She has no idea what has transpired between BT and myself over the last 5 yrs and never will. It's nobody's business but mine.

Because I was getting tired of different fans constantly coming to me and only wanting to ask me about BT related things, I went through my Twitter account and 'cleaned house' Deleting several people. One of them was Billie. I also thought she was deleting her account, so it was no big deal. Well come to find out,  she, and two others have decided to go on a rampage on Twitter about me and defame me to BT no less.

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I finally got a hold of Billie and found out exactly what was going on. She had no idea that BT had already attacked me and accused/judged me without even giving me a chance to defend myself. His exact quote was "Billie's email is bringing tears to my eyes"

I found out through Billie that she also judged and convicted me without talking to me first. She listened to other people who had an agenda against me (mostly because of jealously which I could careless about). She was told by these two/three people that I was accusing her of pirating music and was threatening to prosecute her. That I was talking about this on websites and with other people. The only thing wrong with her story is that there were no other websites that she could show me where I had posted anything. Nor could she answer the question of why wouldn't I have emailed BT and his attorney about the pirating instead of spreading the rumor?  She also couldn't answer how I would know that she even was pirating the new album.

I knew the other people were torrenting/pirating the new album because they publicly posted about it. I never got mad about it or posted anywhere about it or made it public. I was disappointed and hurt. These were the people who claimed to be BT's hardcore fans. and when the album leaked they were the first to jump on it. Kind of disappointing huh?

It's also just as disappointing to be tried, found guilty, and convicted without the chance of defending yourself against people who are supposed to be your friends. Billie it doesn't really bother me so much, we weren't really that close of friends, she was a friend only because she was a fan first. But BT is somebody who I've stood by for 5yrs and considered a friend. I've loved and care for as a family member. We shared things we wouldn't normally share with others. He told me many times how much he loved me and how lost he'd be without me and my help. We cared about each others family and shared daily personal life trials and achievements.  But for an unexplained reason, he judged and convicted me.