Previously titled "Haters?"

(imported from a different blog)


I'm not sure if I should brush it off or should give in and cry. My instincts say cry, but my mind says brush it off.  I received a message today from a "friend" and was pointed to an article where the musician I've done work for innocently said he hated 'peaches'  No big deal right? Right. Except for the fact that I'm known all over the internet as Peach. And he said he hates peaches.

I know it was said innocently and that it was meant for the fruit and not me, but to see it in print really hurt. And to see people that were supposed to be friends laughing about it  hurt. It was made worse when my musician only laughed it off as a joke and couldn't see that I was really hurt by it, and didn't try to comfort me or apologize at all.  Why? Sometimes I just want to curl up into a ball, cry and disappear.

For all my work, I haven't been credited or thanked, except in text messages.  Nobody actually knows exactly how much I've really done. Of course my first loyalty is for the musician, but second is for his fans. Everything I do, I do without benefit. I don't get paid. I don't get perks. And I guess I don't get friends either. So why do I do it? Why should I do it?  All I've gotten is tears.

and now a broken heart..